The other day…The person I thought would always stick by me told me I need to “pick something and stick with it” after. I told her about wanting to become an interpreter. I’ve changed my life goal half a million times, my school twice (once really) and I know a lot of people don’t care….but it really hurt that she said that too me. And it’s created this….Black hole inside me that seems to be eating me alive “Oh you’re having fun? Yeah, but you have no sense of direction in your life.” “Guess what it’s midnight and she’s getting ready to graduate and you haven’t even complete one full year of college”
Basically I know what I want to do, but now I’m so afraid I’m gonna fail again that I don’t wanna do it, and I’m really lonely because I can’t talk to her about it anymore…
I’m just sad…sad and hungry.
kinda hurt kinda offended kinda not planning on saying anything about it
Trying on clothes is really hard when you hate yourself. Liking someone is really hard when you hate yourself. Eating is really hard when you hate yourself. Life is really hard when you hate yourself.
Nintendo DS’s law is the observation that, as soon as you finally decide on and buy a DS, Nintendo will come out with a new and better model that you want more.
When I say “please don’t take a picture of me” it’s not because I’m being bitchy and stubborn, it’s because if I see that picture I will seriously feel so bad about myself and think I am the ugliest thing on earth and sink a little deeper into self consciousness and hatred.
and before anyone says anything about selfies- those are controlled photos.
*goes to a party and awkwardly follows freind around the entire time*